Love's Design: A Beauty to be Seen

Love's Design is meant to share my story. The story of how I realized that God's beauty through my infertility and life is still being designed and a beauty to be seen.

The title of my blog came naturally. A while back, (September/October of 2012) my pastor did a sermon series called, "Love's Design". I was very intrigued by the title and anxious to hear what he had to say. I didn't realize how very appropriate it would be and how desperately I needed to hear God's word through it.
You see my husband and I are dealing with infertility. Which by the way is a huge blow to a person (myself) who thought that getting married and having a baby would be the easiest thing in the world. Here's what God had to say about that, "Um, Elizabeth this is my story for your life and not yours...so you are going to have to do things a little differently than you expected."

Differently than I expected is certainly right! But before I get into the whole infertility story and God's design for Matt and I's family. I need to explain how God is truly a beauty to be seen. In the sermon series, one sermon really caught my attention and struck of chord in my soul. Pastor Todd was preaching from John 9. (Quick low down on that: Jesus healed a blind man) In the passage, Jesus' disciples asked him if the man was blind because of his sin or his parent's sin. This next part is basically the entire desire I have for this blog and what I realized was God's design for my infertility. Jesus' response to that was this, "Neither this man nor his parents sinned, but this happened so that the work of God might be displayed in his life." Basically saying, "It's Love's Design!" and I had nothing to do with this trial in my life. God wants to show off through me!

Whoa baby! God loves us (me) so much that he uses our (my) brokenness to show off his beauty! He has such a larger purpose for my life or anyone's life (for that matter) that accepts him. My heart can only praise Him through this. This is my story, no stop, this is GOD"S STORY about how His beauty and love can be seen through brokenness and pain. Even now tears run down my face because of the unknown of whether or not Matt and I will have a biological child. However, they are not entirely tears of sadness; they are also tears of joy and excitement because I know that my Holy Father has such an amazing design planned for my family and I can barely stand to wait!