It's been a little over 12 weeks since I gave birth to Lydia. The past 12 weeks have certainly been a whirlwind. I can not believe that my little lady is going to be 3 months next week, that I have been off of work since June 17, and that it was 2 years ago when I thought being a mom was only in my dreams. Time actually does fly.
Motherhood has certainly stretched me (even to my limits at times). I could honestly not prepare for what these past 12 weeks have brought me. I had no clue how demanding a newborn is, especially when they are ravenous in the middle of the night. I had no clue that some times babies just cry for no stinking reason. I had no clue how amazing and frustrating breast feeding can be. I had no clue how disgusting poopy diapers are and that a little baby can fart louder than a grown man. I had no clue how long it would take to get out the door-on time is a distant memory. I had no clue how much I would miss sleeping. I had no clue that some days an accomplishment is that I was able to put my contacts in and change out of my pjs. I had no clue.
But I also had no clue what those middle of the night cuddle sessions felt like when Lydia rested her tiny little head on my chest because that was the only spot she could get comfy enough to sleep in. I had no clue what joy I would feel when Lydia smiles up at me while she is feeding letting me know she is content. I had no clue that her little squeals and kicks of delight would melt my heart. I had no clue how much I would rather watch Lydia play on her floor mat or stare at a fan than my favorite TV show. I had no clue how proud I would be when I see my daughter swat at her toys or smile at her daddy. I had no clue how beautiful my little girl would be. I had no clue how much I would love Lydia. I had no clue that my life now is ten times better than it was when Lydia wasn't a part of it.
Motherhood has changed me and Lydia was worth the wait. She was worth every tear shed wondering if I would ever get to hold my own baby. She was worth every doctor's appointment and every procedure I went through to have her. She is a part of me.
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