The Sun is Rising

Waiting on God and learning patience is the theme of my life for years 2012-?. I am being tested major and am ready for the end of this chapter in my life. Not only am I being tested in my battle with infertility, but in March my entire house flooded as well. Talk about kicking me when I am down. Back in February my fertility doctor found a cyst on my left ovary and decided to hold out on my first IVF cycle, I was told to wait until the end of May to see if it disappeared. I went in for the ultrasound about a week and a half ago and the dumb thing is still there. My fertility doctor doesn't want to start my first round of IVF until it shrinks or goes away. My options are another surgery to get the cyst removed or wait. I was told this process was going to take time, but I did not anticipate this much time. I keep telling myself to remember the big picture. I know in a few years I will be able to look back and praise God even more for His sovereign plan over my life, but right now the waiting is torture.

The day of my appointment I was very distraught. I was feeling defeated, confused, and just plain angry. I had taken the day off of work, so I had time to think and be alone. I decided to head to Family Christian Book Store. I found two things that gave my heart a burst of peace and understanding. The first: a cross to help me remember the Peace I can have from God.

Finding Peace

 The second: Britt Nicole's Gold Soundtrack. One of her songs really spoke to me about the journey God has me on. The song is entitled, "The Sun is Rising". The lyrics have so much truth about God's promises for those who stay faithful when enduring painful circumstances in their lives. 

When life has cut too deep and left you hurting
The future you had hoped for is now burning
And the dreams you held so tight lost their meaning
And you don't know if you'll ever find the healing

You're gonna make it
You're gonna make it
And the night can only last for so long

Whatever you're facing
If your heart is breaking
There's a promise for the ones who just hold on
Lift up your eyes and see
The sun is rising

"Night" is only going to last for so long. Knowing that gives me a peace, I know only comes from God, and not from my own understanding. The sun will rise in my life and that gives me joy and excitement.