1. It sucks waiting. Waiting on periods to start, waiting on doctors to give you the okay to begin treatment, and just waiting waiting waiting.
2. It sucks going to the doctors to get blood drawn and ultrasounds to check to see how your uterus looks. This happens multiple times in one treatment.
3. It sucks doing shots and wearing patches that pump ridiculous amounts of hormones inside of you that cause you to visit crazy town from time to time (I am being modest about "from time to time").
4. It sucks taking off of work and telling your boss that you have to come in late because you have to see the doctor.
5. It sucks working with insurance companies that don't care about the fact you are a hormonal mess and take their sweet time getting their paper work done.
6. It sucks feeling like no one really understands what you had to go through to even get to the stage of being allowed to have an embryo put in. This being because the uterus lining, estrogen levels, and progesterone levels all have to be in perfect condition for an embryo or the entire process will be stopped.
This all coming from a woman who already went through the IVF process once with a successful pregnancy and a beautiful 18 month old daughter.
Yes, I got pregnant on my first try of doing IVF. Yes, I understand that this doesn't happen to everyone. Yes, I know I already have a beautiful daughter. This doesn't take away from the fact that I am still infertile and that I still can't become pregnant on my own with my husband. Natural pregnancy was a death I mourned long ago.
Though...
As much as infertility sucks. Every part. There are some parts that are enjoyable. The part where Matthew and I have the ability to decide when we want to have another child. I consider it a blessing that we get to have a little bit of the say in planning out our family. We still believe that God has the final say.
There is also the part that on the day of the embryo transfer we get to actually see our "little embry" live, wiggling around, and hatching. That alone makes it all worth it. Not many parents get to see the cell that started it all. Seeing the wiggly, little embryo hatching shows how powerful and awesome God truly is. No life is started without His say. My hope and peace through this, even the second time, still remains in God's faithful plan and his design for Matthew's and my family.
