There are many lessons or "things" that I have learned from being in my late 20s that I didn't really care about or pay attention to while I was having fun in my early 20s. Starting out with the fact that once you "own" a house it kinda owns you. Mortgage and taxes are just part of the story...mice, ants, spiders, broken front door locks, bees in the master bedroom, and over flowing utility sinks have consumed my happy home. Another fact would be, if I stay up past 9 pm my whole body aches the next day. When did that happen! I remember pulling all-nighters in college without even a yawn. But the biggest fact or lesson I have learned, is NOTHING happens the way you imagine it to work out. When I was in high school, I imagined getting married while I was in college or immediately after and having my first baby by the time I was 25. None of that actually happened. I got married 2 years after college (I guess you could consider that immediately, but I figured I would be like 23 not 25) and I am pushing 29 with no baby in sight. Life hasn't worked out exactly the way I imagined it, and that can lead to stress and thinking life will never meet my expectations.
Learning to let go and let God take over has been one of the hardest things for me to do. After learning that my first IVF cycle was going to be pushed back to after May sometime, I decided it was high time for me to let it go. I realized I had been trying to control this entire process. I was completely stressed out and consumed with getting pregnant. I even quit going to Bible Study because I thought I should have a break to stay completely relaxed (I am back in Bible Study). So here's what I have to say, "Have your way, God! You're going to do what You want anyway!" I am learning that God's will is always best even when I can't imagine how it could be. In the end, I will win and find extreme joy in the entire situation. The ride isn't always going to be the way I would have wanted it, but because I know in my heart that it's what God wants, the ride does get easier. My prayer is that if you are also struggling with God's plan for your life, you find the peace that can transcend all understanding as I am learning to find.
